Opinions?

Something that's been bothering me as of late...

I've become a pacifist. A non-violent person. To, what some have called, the extreme.

Here's the deal. I refuse to make the decision that someone should die rather than myself, or that my causing physical harm to someone else is less of an ethical wrong than them doing the same to me.

I, a perfectly normal (in my own opinion), heterosexual male, would rather allow myself to be killed, my lover raped, and my children taken from me, than for me to strike another human being.

I've had conversations with some whom that opinion sickens to the point of physical illness. I, however, feel that it's perfectly normal. In some ways, I think it might even be what the Gospel calls for us to do.

Yet, it goes against our popular notion in such a drastic way that I'm forced to seek a second opinion. Is this just a clear reading of the Gospel, or an enlightened sense of going against our own animalistic, barbarian natures, or have I gone too far to the extreme, and lost even that sense of self-preservation that is supposed to separate the Darwin-accepted from the Darwin-rejected? Am I still within nature, or reached that point where I'm alive solely by the good graces of those who are better fit for survival?

I claim no moral high ground. This isn't about being a 'better person." I just honestly can't bring myself to hurt another human being, no matter the consequences to myself or anyone whom I love. Have I gone to far?